Sunday, January 14, 2007
Refusing to fall asleep, dread for tmr to come. Refusing to let the tears that have welled up in the eyes to fall onto my face, tears are meant to drop for happy events and not for assholes who have their noses high up in the air.
Was rummaging through my jewellery box, when a sparkling stone caught my attention. It is my 22nd birthday present from him.Gently took the necklace out and put it on. Felt so safe and blessed after putting it on. Maybe psychologically, I can felt his presence, wearing the necklace makes me less sad. Miss those carefree days when we first started dating. Guess our relationship worsen when I started work. My mood swings became more and more severe, till the point I also cannot stand myself. It's not an excuse to mistreat your loved ones this way due to stress and unhappiness you've encounter during work. I'm really sorry for shouting at you and all the nasty stuff that i've done to you.
Sorry dear.. I'm such a bitch.
You really deserve better.
Sleep well..Hope tmr will be a great day without me nagging and scolding you.
Love you lots-ting-
